satisfaction

for some reason i’ve had an overwelming sense of contentment and satisfaction with life today. the reason for this is partly due to the fact of my abilities in my art class (there are other reasons which i don’t want to explain right now).

today we finished a project we had started last week. basically it was just painting an object that had been placed in a shoe box where two sides have been cut off, the remaining walls then have been covered in colored paper. just the process of painting, mixing colors is so nice. i feel very at home in the middle of this project, in this class.

in turns out that i’m actually pretty good, this artistic side comes out so beautifully with a brush in my hand. maybe i’m just being disillusioned but i feel as if it might be my “calling” or whatever. the past couple of weeks i’ve really been drawing a lot…outside of class. i mean drawing on my own for fun.

i think i’m going to pursue this as a major if not definitely as a minor. it’s so gratifying to be interested in something in which i can actually make money. i mean philosophy is awesome but it’s not going to get me anywhere unless i become a teacher. at least with art i have plenty of opportunities ministry wise, business wise, and plenty of personal artistic outlet.

finally…finally i have a direction, a purpose; i can now start to build a vision, a dream and the goals to achieve something. this breathes so much life into my life. i’ve been feeling somewhat dead and lifeless lately; this was the freshness i needed to wash away the stagnant deather that was occuring.